Woof. I just had a breakthrough that threw me for a spectacular loop. I got an insight Saturday that I had been trying to ignore. You know the kind I’m talking about: intuition speaks up loud and clear and you jam your fingers in your ears going lalalacan’thearyou! Anyway, I spent the better part of Sunday, my favorite day of the week, moping around in a funk, letting the revelation sink in.
Maybe you’re not like me. Maybe when you learn a life lesson, you don’t beat yourself up for not knowing that thing your soul set you up to learn in the first place. So there I was, working on myself yet again, when I picked up my journal and read through the notes on my life thus far.
I flipped through the pages and realized that the first quarter of 2010 has been amazing. Together, K and I launched a blog, which has grown into a healthy and thriving chronicle of life, love, relationships. (So cute! And popular, too!) So far, 2010 has been a rootin’ tootin’ ride. We are living at what Abraham calls The Awakening. If you’re doing your work, things are starting to pick up speed, moving really fast. Things are moving pretty fast if you’re not doing your work, it just isn’t as much fun. Just sayin’.
Anyway, so there is an inventory in my journal, dated Dec. 31, 2009. The inventory contains a list of all the things I accomplished last year. Impressive, if I do say so myself! What the inventory also contains, is an exercise I picked up from a rebroadcast on Hay House Radio, from Sonia Choquette. The exercise is called “If I wasn’t afraid, I’d. . . .” The idea is to take a sheet of paper or a page from a journal, and write “If I wasn’t afraid, I’d. . .” and then as quickly as possible, without thinking about it, make a list of all the things you’d do if you didn’t let fear stop you. It’s a very illuminating exercise, and I highly recommend it.
What are the things you’d do if you didn’t let fear stop you? Allow love in? Take a vacation? Stand up for yourself? Love yourself more? Lose weight, take a class, make a friend, tell your mother to stop bossing you around like you were still 10? The funny thing is, when you look at the list of all of the things you’re afraid of, you realize that there really is no monster under the bed. You’ve just pretended that by not living your life fully, you’ve somehow earned a prize for being the most well-behaved person in your PTA/office/marriage. But guess what? There is no prize for letting fear win, and it isn’t too late to decide to live life like you really mean it! Love, C
My two cents: fear is nothing more than our fragile egos wanting to be safe. . . but there really is nothing to be afraid of!
If I wasn’t afraid, if I only had a brain, if I didn’t give a s**t about what people thought about me. It’s all kinda the same thing. If I didn’t worry so much about anything outside of myself and what others thought. What if I just trusted, really trusted my first thought, my intuition and acted on that. What if I didn’t really think about it at all? What if I just went with the flow of the river and let it take me for an amazing ride without trying to control or manipulate the outcome? Just askin’.
I have been doing alot of work on myself, hard work but so rewarding and it is starting to be fun and entertaining. I am reflecting back on past relationships and experiences in my life, and I know they always say hindsight is 20/20, but I am really starting to see the gifts in my life and experiences pretty much immediately, I don’t have to wait 2 or 20 years to see, “Oh now I get why that had to play out the way it did.”
As C said earlier, Abraham said it is now a time of awakening, they also say that all those who are looking will find. That just makes me feel that all of this work has been worth it and I feel at peace and I know there is nothing to be afraid of. We re in amazing times here guys, things are moving faster, our intuition is at an all time high, hell just look at your kids, hand them an iPhone or a new computer game, they just instinctively know how to do this stuff. Amazing times, so exciting.
So, back to fear, it does have it’s place, if danger is lurking in a dark parking lot and you get that ick feeling, listen to that. If you are alone with someone and get an uneasy feeling, again, pay attention. But outside of those kinds of creepy dangerous situations my motto has been for the last couple of years, don’t base your decisions on fear, period. Don’t not do something you really want to do because of what you think might happen. Don’t stress about that job interview because they might not hire you. Don’t beat yourself up before a date because he might not think you are smart or pretty enough. If a situation presents itself and you aren’t sure if you should go for it or not, ask yourself, am I not doing this because I am afraid? If that is your answer, maybe you need to take another look at it. xo-K
My two cents: As one of my favorite teachers, Marianne Williamson says, “You never make your decisions based on fear, you make you decisions based on love.”